My mental battle with food!

I will have my first visit with the surgeon in about a week. I'm finding that I am having a little mental battle with myself. I keep thinking to myself: "in a little bit, I won't be able to eat this food, or as much of it... Better enjoy it while I can." With this mentality, if I'm not careful I will end up weighing 500 pounds before I get into the surgical room. I am getting better about shutting this part of my brain off. But it is tough.

A couple weeks ago, I visited my general practitioner and told her about my decision. She said that she thought it was the best decision for me and if she was in my position she also would be lined up for weight loss surgery. Yesterday, I received the blood work results from that appointment. I was shocked to see my A1C at 6.1 and all my cholesterol and other blood work was right where it should be. I keep asking myself how is that possible? I am one of the worst diabetics out there. There are days that I will binge on sugar and bad stuff... I guess God is watching out for me. After the surgery, these blood results will only get better... YEAH!